Haha , my blog is so dead . Had been inactive in everything lately due to school . I applied DPA already so wish me luck for it ! I really hope im shortlisted for the interview !!

So june holiday had started for some . Im still having school and its intensive ! 8-6pm everyday . All we do is study . And break time is shorten to 30mins ? I still got my chem to do later on :(

Today was sport fiesta ! My class won 1st for floorball and captain ball! Something we aim for this year yeay!

I get my results back today . It was atrocious . Well that the tradition of an exam , just going to try my best to stay on the game . Totally disappointed in my English . Well there is an improvement in my tense .

Sometimes i just feel not appreciated anymore you see . I just dunno how to express it but keep it to myself . People are taking huge advantage of me . I don't know maybe it is just karma . Well , why the fuck am i feeling this way . I start to care about things nowadays . I don't know what is wrong with me :(

I don't know how to say it in words but i got a lot of things to say. Why am i feeling this way ? I could handled it all along in the past year and why the heck am i feeling this way now? C'mon Aikel you did it once and you can do it again! Damn i very disappointed with myself now .


Well , i was happy first thing in a morning because it was mother's day . Then when it came to night? I broke my guitar tuning peg , damn no playing of new guitar till i get it fixed . Well i can't used my savings because i told myself it should be touch! And replacing tuning pegs is not cheap. I wanted to ask my parents for sponsorship but im just too shy to ask you see . Too much money for school books i ask them.

Its the end of mid year but it is not the end of O level . Mane ntah itu princess menghilangkan diri? Kesian die sakit ! If your reading this cakeface ! GET WELL SOON !! I need to Tango you asap!!! Monday might watch The Avengers with classmate :)

I just dunno what to do. Nevermind .

24th April 2012

Mid - year is around the corner and its getting more intense for the class . Farid was facing stress in class just now . I thought someone like him won't face stress because he was the one who always the 'into' ones to study. Well i haven't even start my revision yet . I don't really care much about MYE .

Don't worry , whatever i did , it doesn't show that i hate you. I don't at all.

28th April

So today is a7x concert day . I wanted to go but changed my mind because watching the concert in a big crowd plus standing for an hour and a half is not cool! But playing for that crowd is cool! Yesterday , i had a phone chat with someone . Well even thought it was 80 percent the person talking to him/herself an 20 percent talking to me i do had fun too :) now , im hungry i need food !

So today was the first day of my Mid Year Exams . Okay i screwed up the paper haha . I got to rely on my grammar now which is totally hopeless . Locomotion to Tampines right after the paper with Farid . Spent 8 bucks on a freaking pen ? Anyway i hope i didn't loose it ? No paper for tomorrow , I shall study something tomorrow and later too . You used to captivate me by your resonating light . Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind . Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams . Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me . Im Sorry :(

24th April 2012

Mid - year is around the corner and its getting more intense for the class . Farid was facing stress in class just now . I thought someone like him won't face stress because he was the one who always the 'into' ones to study. Well i haven't even start my revision yet . I don't really care much about MYE .

Don't worry , whatever i did , it doesn't show that i hate you. I don't at all.

19th April 2012

Anyways, remember that one worry I had before? Well, that one worry came true in the end. It always ends this way, doesn't it? Aikel is forever the bahan. Aikel is forever the one you'd turn to when you're bored. Aikel is forever the last resort when nobody layans you. Aikel is the nice boy, he would never ignore me. Right? We all know that. I know that. I just choose to shut up. Why? Because I'm Aikel. I have no feelings, remember? Heh heh.

15th April 2012

Its been awhile since i last blogged . Well its either i got nothing to write or im lazy. My blog is boring . Nothing fun happened in life the past few days . I miss someone :( i shall go eat ice cream. Back to school tomorrow anyway. Im not ready for mid year but lucky for me i have a major exam to actually concentrate on. Im using this mid year as my weakness search :)

18 April 2012

Im stress :)

15th April 2012

Its been awhile since i last blogged . Well its either i got nothing to write or im lazy. My blog is boring . Nothing fun happened in life the past few days . I miss someone :( i shall go eat ice cream. Back to school tomorrow anyway. Im not ready for mid year but lucky for me i have a major exam to actually concentrate on. Im using this mid year as my weakness search :)

14th April 2012

Drama pictures and class picture with ahmad !

11th April 2011

I did totally nothing today? Except for maths? I went to polish my guitar and it look cleaner now . Look at the headstock got my name heheh. Whoever wants to know what i use for the polishing i posted the picture already.

Who the fuck have that god damn rights to stop you from whatever you want to do in life ? Who the hell? So keep doing what you want , dont care the hell of people.

10th April 2012

Wohooo! 5n2 mathematics video is out !!! Muahahahhahahah! Need help in remembering your formula? Take a look at the video in youtube . Ask me for the link and i will pass to you guys ;) i started off the day with someone asking me why i look crestfallen ? Well i don't know probably my morning busuk face . Anyway , ade seseorang manusia call aku ! Ahhhhh kalau kau ngah bace ni aku syg kau sumpah! Sape2 salah terasa , lantaklah tak refer kat kau pun!

9th April 2012

Im totally going to audition myself for my music school. Im going to audition for guitar ! Haha. Going to make new friends in music . School had been sucks . Test here and there . I already felt the pressure already. Every time i reached home , i would definitely feel tired and all i want was just breaks :( fuck you aikel , suffer now .

8th April 2012

I wonder why you never appear on my timeline anymore ? I did a big mistake by telling bryan i will be on hiatus for crown for mannequins . Will be coming back at the end of the year. Wtf! I will be missing the fun-ness of making music!

7th April 2012

Started the day off with piano class then slack at home the whole day and shred my guitar. 5hrs of shredding ! Now that is real hardcore babe! My mom is considering getting a kitten after the renovations end. I like the idea of getting a pet since im an animal lovers . Short post today cause imtoo lazy to write !



None of you are worthy of being my adversary, your delusions are reeking stupidity .

Maybe your just busy or something ?why the fuck am i assuming stuff ! Damn i hate this feeling . Well i will keep to my promise still.

6th April 2012

Currently watching tv :) i didn't blog yesterday because i fell asleep right after school till the next day that is today ! So i went to Singapore expo to start off the day , went to the wedding area to collect some food. Had a dad and son bonding . We went to the megatex IT show after that. Got a lot of good deals but it is still not worth . Oh well that is business . So , my dad had been keeping a secret about him getting into an accident at the PIE in the rain? I told him not to ride motorbike when it was raining . Now he is limping .

Almighty please take a good care of him. I really love my dad a lot . He sacrifice a lot for the family . Please let him recover well too. Take a good care of my family too . My mom , my dad and my brother . I can't be there all along for them .

4th April 2012

Went to watch Hunger Games . Overall was a splendid movie . What disappoint me most was the ending . It was hanging. If only i enjoy reading i would had bought the book. I also took my truss rod cover ! It was bigger than what i expected anyway i just going to put it on ! It looks cool!

Im still in a dilemma . I have to make the decision asap. Allah , please lead me the way. Change me to a better person and also show me the right path .

3rd April 2012

So just now we all did 2.4km. I passed my 2.4 wohoo. Practiced class act after school. Had a lot of fun just now !

Im still in dilemma whether to or not to chase ? I got to consult cik bedah later on . So cik bedah if you're reading this i will consult you later ! Really ? I wished i could lead a carefree life but i couldn't there will still a part of me caring . I'm starting to have a lot of doubts about you now :( i don't wish to have it but everything just keep playing in my head . Morbit thoughts haunt me ! Okay that was too much hahah. Now i really have to think about my o levels . I really want to have an affluent life but i hope if i have them i will not be arrogant towards anyone . Sometimes wealth can mindfuck you . I will carry my victory aloftly when i really made it . I want to show the world that im not a failure in anything :)

Feeling alienated not to worry , i feel that way too . I got no where to rant so thats the reason why this blog is created :)

Reflect .

Well , at times i ask myself whether what i'm fighting for is really worth it ? Till now i couldn't answer it myself because i am hypnotize by the thrill of the chase . Be it chasing dreams or something else ? Well that is what you call life , you just don't know what life have in store for you . So make your decision now , life is too short . If you ever screwed something up ? There is no more time for regrets . Carry on with life.

Woke up in the morning , it started to rain heavily . So i decided to go to school with slippers :D thought of changing it back to shoes but i just took the advantage of wearing slippers the whole day . I even brought the flowery umbrella along LOL ! As usual our purpose to come to school was to study but i think there is too much stuff on my head . Still , i had to force myself to study . What to do ? your living in Singapore . No papers no talk ? Alright that is all . I'm too lazy to talk about everything .